Well foremost what can I say about the year 2011...(one word)...Bad!!!!!!! I'm being very nice because I'm a Christian!! Most of the year for me, was trying to make the hardest decision in my life....leaving my best friend, soul mate and my first true love!! Also my two precious kid's going through a divorce!! I decided on Aug. 27 that it was over....he told me in so many words that he didn't love me and he wanted out also!! We said goodbye to our Marriage on November 8 and now I'm a single divorced mom!!
New path right??
I was living in a house with three bedrooms, a husband, and a made up life that was weaking my faith each day!!..... I now find myself living with my parents because I don't get any help from him!! I find myself wondering why I had waited for so long to get out when he did not love me anymore!! I now find myself getting stronger each new day in my faith!! Wondering what god has in store for me next!!
I was not going to be one of those percentages...where they say that marriages are going to fail (because of)!! I thought i had found someone who loved me and adored me! He had flaw's but I over looked them all the time!! Made excuses for him...and Lied over and over about anything and everything!! But still I wanted this marriage to work!! But a Marriage does not work if only one person is working at it...and that's what I was doing!! When we would go out in public we would smile and act like a family!! Smiles and Laughs...and all the while I knew deep down in my heart that he had a alternate life he was living and I was not apart of!! So it makes me very sick and ill...that now my life is one of the percentages that everyone talks about!!
But God has been so good to me...he never left me in any way!! He was and is that shoulder I cried on in the middle of the night...when there was nobody else around!! He was and is that friend I could talk to and knew exactly what was going on with my life!! So for the next year...I am going to grow in my faith and understanding!! I am going to strive to be the best Christian, Mother, Daughter, Sister I can be!! I am on God's new Path and I am having the faith and Prayer to stay on this Path!!
"Never will I Leave you; never will I forsake you."..."The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid."
God's New Path.....and God is in Control!!!
