Happy Birthday to Me....

Yeah, I'm 29, Yesterday was my birthday!!! It started off really good. Got a good morning kiss from my son, and husband. They both told me they Loved me, and that just made my morning. Well the day progressed. By noon, I was wanting to just go back to bed and get up again. Ever thing was screwed up at work. Just about every piece of paper we pick up there was something wrong with it. Plus, I miss birthday girl, crashed the system at work. I have no idea what happened, it just decided to crash on me. I got very emotional (crying). Because, I work for my Dad and Mom. My Dad is a very hard person to read. He wants the best for girls. I to be honest have not done my best. It is a very hard thing to explain but I have always tried to impress my Dad. I let him down all the time. I know I let him down because he never says anything to me. That's all I ever wanted was to be the light in my Dad's eye's. And I guess since I am still working for him that feeling of wanting to impress him still stands. I started working for day since I was 14 and I'm still here. I drop out of collage to get married, and I know that was disappointing. It's just that I'm secure here, I'm stuck in a shell, and I don't want to change. Or that's how I feel right now. Anyway I just don't wont him to be disappointed anymore in me than he already is. And here I crashed the system. So anyway, It was a emotional roller coaster yesterday. It got better my mom planed a supper at a Colton's. My Uncle and Aunt came in from Indiana. So they where there, also my sister came. And low and behold, my Dad walks in the door. What did I tell you my Dad is a very hard person to read. Anyway feelings so far of being 29. Happy, Upset, Glad, and Regret. Happy to be 29, Thanks you God for giving me one more year to be older. Upset that I screwed up the computer. Glad that my family took me out for supper last night, and they where all there. Regret that this all had to happen when I'm a year older. So all I've got left to say, Happy Birthday to Me!!!!