Surving the Hoilday's...

Ok, It's been awhile, and no I'm not dead. Just been very busy. Yeah we survived the Holiday's. We actually made it. It actually wasn't that bad this year. We were very blessed to be off work both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. This gave a chance to spread our time out with everyone. We got to spend some time with Davids family and my family. I don't know what happened this year, but we where not rushed at all. It felt very good. We got to catch up on family life, and not worry about presents. Or at least the adults didn't worry about presents... The years past we spent the night with my mom and had Christmas Morning with her. Here is Carson Opening his presents Christmas Morning. This was the very first Christmas Morning at my house this year. We did the whole Santa's milk and cookies. And yes we even feed the reindeer. This year Carson realize who Santa was and so I invited my Mom and Dad to come over and watch him opened his gifts from Santa. It was so cute, we continued the Thomas the Train Theme from his Birthday for Christmas.

So he had a good Christmas I believe. We just tried to make sure he had a few things under the tree. We than went to Mom's house to have breakfest and opened Presents for her. It was fun and me and my sister got Scrap booking things. That's about all I ask for this year. Boy it was more than what I expected. I also got a scrapbook Sweatshirt. Here I am posing.

I was very surprised about the sweatshirt. Anyway my husband got me a watch and money. He told me he didn't know what to get me this year. But I was happy he gave me money anyway. So we did our gifts and than we went to spend Christmas with my Grandpa and my step Grandmother. We did a little bit different this year we rented a place. So for the very first year in my 30yrs of my life. We didn't have Christmas at my Grandpa's. It was bittersweet this year. For one reason, we had enough room, and the TV wasn't going on. The other thing, before we left there was a piano in the place. My dad played and the family started singing songs for my grandpa. You see, our family is based on a Christian Singing Family. There is my Dad, and my two uncles who play the piano and are preaches. So the biggest part of past holiday's was singing old hymns that Grandpa and Grandma loved to here. So that was the highlight of the day singing around like we used to do when we where little.

So we had a very blessed Christmas and hope we have a Blessed New year also.

Ready or Not, Christmas is almost Here...

I must say, for Christmas to be in two weeks, I am more ready for Christmas this year than I was last. Mainly because I have planned it out a little differently than last year. Everything in my house is very basic. I did not decorate very much outside or inside. I just feel like it just needs to be simple to be pretty this year. And for the first time in a very long time, the gifts are mostly bought. I just have a few that are on order, and I hope and pray that they will be here in time for Christmas. But the gifts are very simple. I haven't bought for hardly anybody this year. I have a few gifts that I had to buy that where small in cost. I feel like everybody bent to the financial needs of other's. Like instead of drawing names, we are exchanging a ten dollar man or woman's gift a church. And at work, the ladies are bring a ten dollar scrap booking supply. And as for my extended family, we are not doing gifts this year. So I feel like everyone understands the financial strain everyone is under this year. I mainly bought for my son, husband, sister, mother and father and in-laws. So I myself do not feel stress out very much this year. There is much to do and make. Plus I informed Santa, that my son wants a couple of things that have to be made or put together. So Santa is feeling the stress of Christmas. I told him put a smile on his face and enjoy it. So anyway ready or not, Christmas is almost here and I'm ready for it.

I can not wait till this coming weekend. My mom and I are going to make candy and treats. This was passed down from my grandmother. Baking and making Candy was her treat to us. I feel very honored in receiving some of her recipes that she made every year. I'm looking forward in making Rice Krispees treats, sugar cookie's, a recipe called Heavenly Hash, Fudge, and Chocolate covered Pretzel. All of those good and fating candy. It's just a fun time to get together with my mom and sister. And maybe this year Carson will be able to help with making candy. It will be very interesting. But I'm sure it will be eatable.

I love Christmas mainly because it seems to be the only time when most of the world stands still for at least a day. I mean when everything is closed, even Wal-Mart the day of Christmas, is what I mean when things are at a stand still. I know it's silly but when leaving my Grandpa's we just have to drive into the parking lot of Wal-mart. Because there is not a single soul around. I believe most people try to really feel the Peace that God wishes we had all through the year. I try to have this peace in my heart. God want's us all to have peace and share that peace of the season to everyone. This is my Grownup Christmas wish. That we all try to find Peace within ourselves and with others. So are you truly ready for Christmas this year. You've only got two weeks left. Find it, feel it, and share the spirit of Christmas with everyone you come in contact with. Because Christmas is almost here!!!

When True Friends are not...

Remember in my profile I am a observer. I just have a few thoughts that have been thinking on. For a couple of year's now, I have tried to push and form friendship with someone. And to be honest, I just don't think they want to be close friends. And I just don't know how long I need to keep the friendship going. I truly want the friendship to work. Don't get me wrong, I have some wonderful friends. The friends that I have, I've made over many years, and are great wonderful friends. They will drop everything just to help you out. I love them very much. They are my very true best friends, and they know who they are. If I need something or just to talk they are there. They've been my friends for years. But I have also made new friends along my life that are good friends also. But then I have those friends who just could care less about what goes on with you. The question is how far do you push a friendship. How far do you to go to be friends with certain people? When do you say enough is enough? I have this problem right now. Just how do I go about, trying to end a make shift friendship. When you know the friendship is truly not even there. How do you cut people out of your life? When you truly want them to be in you life? These are question's in my mind right now. I just don't know I will figure it out. I just don't like getting hurt all the time. I know I am the kind of person who never quits on somebody. And I hope that people won't quit on me. And I don't want to quit on them but when is enough, enough? When do I stop getting hurt. When I know that it is a forced friendship anyway. It just hurts that no matter how hard you try or how much you do for them they just don't want to be friends.