Having to say goodbye...

Oh, what I have to do tomorrow is going to hurt. I have to say goodbye to a very, faithful, loving and dependable woman. She has been apart of my family for a total of three years. We have become very good friends. We have one thing in our lives that we have been sharing. That is my son. As I'm working on a gift for her, it truly has been a very difficult task. Because I want to give her the world for taking care of my son. She has been wonderful, trustworthy, and a very dependable.
When I was seven month's pregnant I started trying to figure out who to watch my unborn child. We looked at childcare facility's. Meet with them, talk with them, and just look around at the places. We finally pick one out, we signed up at a place called Kid's Corner. It was owned by some friends of my father. They where nice and willing to take in baby boy. But then things turned around when I was eight month's pregnant. We had our last ultrasound done, we found that Carson had major health problem's. So the option of finding a daycare place that would take in a child with health problems was coming to a close.
So I just waited and prayed about this situation that we where in. It was not an option of me staying home, because like many we needed the money. My mom was working. My sister was in college. The only other option would be a babysitter. So like an answered prayer, Kissa Gardener came into our lives. I had went to school with her and was going to church with my sister. She was pregnant and wanted to stay home with her daughter and her newborn. She didn't mind watching another baby.
She started watching Carson February 1,2005. So with an exception of a few months off with her giving birth. And Carson's Surgery's, Vacation's, and Holiday's. She has been our Babysitter for the past 3 year's. The reason for us to leave, is Carson needs to start Preschool. He is three now so I want him to be the best he can be. So I want this extra push on him. So he will be ready for School. So how can you tell someone, who has been such a big part of yours and your child's lives goodbye. Tomorrow will not be easy, but they will be tears of Joy and Happiness. I wouldn't take back any of those years. Because I feel like we have made friend's for life.

Very Proud Mother...

I am a very proud mother right now. Last night at church, we had several solo's at church. I got to sing a couple. My husband got to sing some. What I am so proud of is that, the church ask my son get up in front of everyone and sing some songs. So he walk up on the stage, grab the microphone, and then he started singing Jesus Loves Me. He was just as plan as he could be. He look so big and tall. After he got done with the first song. They asked him to sing Zacharias. So he started singing again. I was so proud of him. I believe he will be a very good singer. David and myself started singing about Carson's age. So it comes very natural for him to sing. I hope he will continue singing for the church. So now I have a preschooler that likes to sing in front of the church. My baby is growing up way to fast!!!

Don't Cry Outloud....

Well, First of all I had a wonderful Mother's Day. And just like I hope I got a mother's ring. It has mine, Davids, the month we got married, and last but not least Carson's birth stone. It is very pretty and it's just what I've been hinting around for four years now. My husband did a wonderful job on picking it out. So we went and surprised granny at church Sunday. You ought to have seen her face when she saw us at her church. I wish I got my camera out to take a picture of her look. It was fun and different. I told my mom it really didn't matter what we did, just as long as I was with my mom and my son for mother's day. So that's what happened. So it was a good 4th Mother's Day.

It's been kind of gloomy for me right now. I knew I had to do it, so last night I sat down and filled out the ten page registration for preschool for Carson. The more I read it and filled out the information the more, I realized that it will never be the same again. My three year old son is fixing to go to school!!! And he will be in school till he is 18 years old!!! WOW!!! What a thought!! That's a long time for my son to be in school.

I'm doing good. I'm not crying yet!!! I'm not upset yet!! We are going Friday and turn in the paperwork and let Carson see the inside of the school. Don't know how he will react to see the inside. He knows the outside has mostly toys and a playground. You know Fun Stuff!!! I don't think it will get to me until June 2. So I'm keeping all the feelings inside and some on the blog. It's just a big change for him and I hope it will all work out in the end. A new Adventure is awaiting us.

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Well, it's my 4th Mother's day weekend. We don't have alot going on. Just a big get together with my family at my granny's church. We have never celebrated Mother's Day at anywhere else than our church. So this year my mother got with her brother's and sister's, and we are going to surprise granny. We are going to meet in the Piggott General Baptist Church in Piggott Ar. parking lot at 10:00 and all go in together. I 'm just excited to see my granny's face when about ten-twenty of us show up. I will let you know how it went. But as for me, I've been hinting around for a mother's ring. Maybe I will get one this year. Can't wait!!! So anyway for those that read my blog, I wish you a Wonderful, Blessed, and Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Ladies Night....

Saturday Night we had a Ladies Night at our church. It was a Birthday Theme. We had a ball!!! It was so fun! We played games, had birthday cake, and exchange gifts. We just celebrated and cried and shared memories of birthday's from the past. I made all the women at the party a Chipboard Calender. They turned out very neat, Thanks Lisa Terry for the idea!! Here is what they looked like!!

They really looked nice. Everyone commented on them how neat it was. On the back of each one there is a list of the all the women birthday's in the church. I thought it would be nice to look at the calender to see who's birthday was coming up. The only thing, It only took me about six nights to work on them. Well you know, I have a three year old. It just took longer than what I thought. But it all worked out fine. It was alot of fun and I just might make more....

Growing up....

Ok...I just got done registering my three old in pre-school today. I just can't believe how fast he is growing up. It just seems like yesterday that I brought him home from the hospital. Now he is actually fixing to go to pre-school. I have people tell me, he is to young to go. Then I turn around and they say that it will be good for him. It's just a mixed emotion. I want the best for him and if going to school early is that, than I'm all for it. I struggled in school and I don't want him to. So I picked up the packet today and gave them the information they needed. So he is set, just got to fill out the packet and return and so June 2, 2008 my son Carson Allen Roush will be starting pre-school. Oh my, he is really Growing Up!!!

Lord, I can hear you...

Well, I went to the Ear Dr. yesterday and although I did lose some part of my hearing. The Doctor said that I would regain my hearing within six to eight weeks. That is what I wanted to here LOL...It was an experience I will never forget. The last time my hearing was check, I was in elementary school. You know the test where if you here a noise lift your hand up for that ear. This was a little more difficult. They put me in a sound proof room, with cords and buttons and a chair. They stuck wires in my ear and the machine made loud, medium, soft noises. For every noise that happened I pushed the button. Like I said it was an experience I will never forget. Anyway the test came back my right ear was just fine. The left one, He told me I lost about 5% of my hearing. So if I don't regain it, he told me it's not a major lost of my hearing, but I should regain it all back. I am OK, with it. As long as it comes back I will be fine. It just feels like I'm in a barrel talking still. I am not to use q-tips again. He saw that my ear drum was somewhat damaged from using q-tips. Wow, I had no idea that I was doing that to my ear. The only thing I have to figure out is, to learn how to sing with some hearing lost. It's just going to be a little bother for me. But praise God that it was not at all serious. I believe it was just a test in my faith. I believe that if you have just even a little faith that God is in control it will all work out in the end. Maybe not for you, but God's plan for you. I Thank God for everything in my life. Without him I just don't know what I would do. Give God Thanks for he is in control of your life!!!