Ready or Not, Christmas is almost Here...

I must say, for Christmas to be in two weeks, I am more ready for Christmas this year than I was last. Mainly because I have planned it out a little differently than last year. Everything in my house is very basic. I did not decorate very much outside or inside. I just feel like it just needs to be simple to be pretty this year. And for the first time in a very long time, the gifts are mostly bought. I just have a few that are on order, and I hope and pray that they will be here in time for Christmas. But the gifts are very simple. I haven't bought for hardly anybody this year. I have a few gifts that I had to buy that where small in cost. I feel like everybody bent to the financial needs of other's. Like instead of drawing names, we are exchanging a ten dollar man or woman's gift a church. And at work, the ladies are bring a ten dollar scrap booking supply. And as for my extended family, we are not doing gifts this year. So I feel like everyone understands the financial strain everyone is under this year. I mainly bought for my son, husband, sister, mother and father and in-laws. So I myself do not feel stress out very much this year. There is much to do and make. Plus I informed Santa, that my son wants a couple of things that have to be made or put together. So Santa is feeling the stress of Christmas. I told him put a smile on his face and enjoy it. So anyway ready or not, Christmas is almost here and I'm ready for it.

I can not wait till this coming weekend. My mom and I are going to make candy and treats. This was passed down from my grandmother. Baking and making Candy was her treat to us. I feel very honored in receiving some of her recipes that she made every year. I'm looking forward in making Rice Krispees treats, sugar cookie's, a recipe called Heavenly Hash, Fudge, and Chocolate covered Pretzel. All of those good and fating candy. It's just a fun time to get together with my mom and sister. And maybe this year Carson will be able to help with making candy. It will be very interesting. But I'm sure it will be eatable.

I love Christmas mainly because it seems to be the only time when most of the world stands still for at least a day. I mean when everything is closed, even Wal-Mart the day of Christmas, is what I mean when things are at a stand still. I know it's silly but when leaving my Grandpa's we just have to drive into the parking lot of Wal-mart. Because there is not a single soul around. I believe most people try to really feel the Peace that God wishes we had all through the year. I try to have this peace in my heart. God want's us all to have peace and share that peace of the season to everyone. This is my Grownup Christmas wish. That we all try to find Peace within ourselves and with others. So are you truly ready for Christmas this year. You've only got two weeks left. Find it, feel it, and share the spirit of Christmas with everyone you come in contact with. Because Christmas is almost here!!!

When True Friends are not...

Remember in my profile I am a observer. I just have a few thoughts that have been thinking on. For a couple of year's now, I have tried to push and form friendship with someone. And to be honest, I just don't think they want to be close friends. And I just don't know how long I need to keep the friendship going. I truly want the friendship to work. Don't get me wrong, I have some wonderful friends. The friends that I have, I've made over many years, and are great wonderful friends. They will drop everything just to help you out. I love them very much. They are my very true best friends, and they know who they are. If I need something or just to talk they are there. They've been my friends for years. But I have also made new friends along my life that are good friends also. But then I have those friends who just could care less about what goes on with you. The question is how far do you push a friendship. How far do you to go to be friends with certain people? When do you say enough is enough? I have this problem right now. Just how do I go about, trying to end a make shift friendship. When you know the friendship is truly not even there. How do you cut people out of your life? When you truly want them to be in you life? These are question's in my mind right now. I just don't know I will figure it out. I just don't like getting hurt all the time. I know I am the kind of person who never quits on somebody. And I hope that people won't quit on me. And I don't want to quit on them but when is enough, enough? When do I stop getting hurt. When I know that it is a forced friendship anyway. It just hurts that no matter how hard you try or how much you do for them they just don't want to be friends.

What a Weekend...

I must say that having a child around a holiday is not easy. We celebrated Thanksgiving, than turned around and had Carson's third Birthday. It was a good year though. For the first time in a long time. I took the time and thought about what I am so Thankful for this year. We are truly blessed. And we Thank God up above for that. So we celebrated Thanksgiving with our family. It went very well. I got a new tradition started for Thanksgiving Day. I got the idea from the ladies at Stamp Camp the other night. Thanks!! The idea was to bring whatever you wanted to work on, and scrapbook with your family on Thanksgiving Day. It was kind of odd. It was different. Because, we really haven't scrap with each other. So I hope a new tradition was formed. I hope everyone enjoyed it. We just shared and laughed with each other. Before we new it, the day was over and everyone headed home. So I was thankful that we have a hobby that we can share during the holiday's.
So the next thing happened over the weekend. Was Carson's third birthday party. I had to work Friday, but I research on the Internet and found a wonderful idea for his party. You see we did his party in Thomas the Train. Thomas the Train is just what he is into this year. Last year it was Elmo, and the year before was just his first birthday. So I decided that this year was going to be good. I took the idea from a lady, that planned a party for her three year old nephew. She had turned her house into a train station. She had e-mail step by step what she had did for the party. First of all she used black duct tape for the train tracks. She placed the tracks all over the floor. And made the character out of cardboard boxes and spray paint.
She also gave this idea, not to give the kids their goodie bags. But have games and let them win prizes (Goodie Bag items) and let them fill their goodie bags. So that's what we did. I started with a letter from Sir. Tophem Hat. And it read that Thomas the train was one his way to Carson's Party and that he was lost and he needed help trying to find Thomas. He also said that if along the way Thomas friends might need help. Help them out if we could. So we started down the hall, and the very first thing. Toby had drop coal out of his train car. Could we help him out by putting the coal back into his car. So the kids put coal (black socks filled with rice) back into the car. They got a prize. Then we moved on down. The Cranky the Crane dropped packages into the water, and could we fish and get the packages out. (Plywood with a Blue sheet leaned up against the hallway, with someone behind it to clip brown sacks filled with goodies to a dowel rod with yarn and a clothes pin) They loved it. So one we go, and Percy had ran into the chocolate factory and got candy all over him. The kid's had to collect all the choc late candy. So we help him out. Last but not least was James. He knew where Thomas was but the steam was thick and he couldn't get his whistle to work. (Steam was white balloon's) and under the balloons was the kid's whistles. So as they where blowing on their whistles, I had an adult blow on one in the other room. There was Thomas the Train. (Thomas Tent that my mom bought Carson) Inside the tent was pinata candy.
You should have seen all those faces. It was alot of work to put together, but in the end it was all worth it. I was so pleased how everything went. Carson had about four little kids at his party. Being a holiday weekend it was hard to get his friends to come to his party. That is just something we are all going to have to deal with as he gets older. But he had about twenty-five adults.
My best friend and her mom made the cake and my dad got a helium tank to blow the balloon's up. Mom and my sister prepared the food. And my older cousin's help with the games. So all in all it was a Wonderful Team Effort. I hope his parties go just as good in the future. I love to create things that will have a lasting memory in people. It doesn't matter if I have a good time it matter's to me if everybody else has a good time. What a wonderful weekend, I'm even tired of blogging about it. I Thank God for another year with my son!!

Making Christmas Cards...

Alright I have a new hobby. I got to make 15 Christmas Cards this week. I really didn't know if I would like making cards. But I just want to say, (Thanks Ginger)!! She invited me to go with her to a Stamp Camp Class. I loved it, I had so much fun!! The class was a little advanced, for me. But I made it, with the help of the ladies around our table. They help me quite abit. But everything was cut and prepared for you. You just placed the card together. The first five where kinda of hard. But the rest where easier to figure our. Anyway, I believe with the pattern that we made. I will make my Christmas Cards this year. For the very first time ever. I will take the time and make each and everyone a homemade card this year. I think...If I have the time!!! I would just like to share with you , that I love the hobby that I have discovered. I can really do it, and I enjoy doing it. Wither it would be scrap booking or making cards. I just enjoy putting together something from scratch. My sister and mom pushed me into scrap booking. I thought I wouldn't be that good. But I'm finding it easier to do. So this is my new hobby. I hope to become better as the experience happens. I just can't believe I'm making my cards this year. Wish me luck!!!

I'm Not a Pageant Mother...

Well, the Jig is up. I'm not a Pageant Mother. Let me explain. Last Tuesday, we where asked if I would be interested in entering Carson in a Beauty Pageant. Mind you he has never entered a pageant. Well, I surrendered, Mom and my friend Ginger talked me into it. The pageant was Church Wear. So I just pulled an outfit from the closet, that we found at Dillard's in the spring on sale. It was tan pants, with a under shirt green,white, and cream. And we had a cover shirt that was dark green swede. It was cute, although I probably could have found a better outfit. So we got up Saturday Morning I let him play up till we had to get his bath. I put play close on him till we got there. We missed rehearsal because I had already schedule pictures for his birthday at Sears. The rehearsal was the Friday night before. We got there we had no clue what was going on or where to go. Luckily Amy the one that was in charge of it, showed us where to go and get ready. Mind you I have never done this before with him. I mean I was in a few pageants when I was little. But I had never put my son in a pageant before. His Daddy always told me that pageants where for girls. So here we are surrounded by all pretty little girls. Carson just looked at them like what I'm I doing here. So we got our number, and paperwork. Went and put his clothes on him. And just telling him if he did good we would go to the mall and play and get a toy. So we waited till our number was called. Mom and my sister went out in the audience to take pictures. The pageant was not very big at all, they where just raising money for Christmas for the needy in the town. So we waited, they called for the tiny little misses, than baby little misses, then it was our turn Baby Little Mr. There was only one other little boy that had entered. So we got on stage and blew kisses, waved at Nana and aunt sissy. Blew kisses at the judges (this is what I did when I was little) and tried to smile. Now Carson is a typical little boy. He will laugh and smile when he wants to. But he will not do it, on cue. He held my hand and would not let go. I figure he would get on stage and just start crying. But, I thought he did very well consider he didn't know what was going on. So we did our wave and all the turns, and things like that. We went back stage and waiting till they called for us again. We got called, went back on stage they called Carson name for the Most Photogenic. He got a plaque and a ribbon sash. Then he got called for 1st runner up. Got a trophy and another ribbon sash. The other little boy got Mr. Baby Autumn Beau. He got a bigger trophy and a ribbon sash, but, he got a toy truck instead of a Crown. That was fine and dandy, because we had already told Carson he would get a toy later. I turned out OK, It's just I'm not a Pageant Mother. I'm just not into paying big money for a few turns. Just to tell me that my child is prettier than the other's. I'm not against it by no means. I'm just not into it. So we may or not enter another one, who knows. But right now I'm Not a Pageant Mother!!!

Not wanting to let go...

OK, for those that have told me that it's not that hard to let their children grow up, are very wrong. My little boy, is fixing to turn three, and I don't want him to turn another year older. It hadn't been that long ago that he was a little tiny baby boy. That I had waited very patiently for all my life. I know all mother's ask this question "Where did the time go". I honestly don't know where the time has went, because one min. he was a baby and now he his a toddler. I just wish I could freeze time and have a few more years of my little baby. My son and my husband are the loves of my life. I prayed to God for both of them. God has made me learn about patience. I wanted to have a boyfriend in school, but all the guys wanted to just be friends. So when I got out of high school I meet my husband in collage. Two years later we where married. We wanted children, that was a big reason why we married. We loved children. He has several brothers and sisters. I just have one sister. But we knew we wanted to share our life with our children. So again when we wanted to have children, God wasn't ready for us to have any. So we patiently waited. It took me a solid year to get pregnant. I had a good pregnancy, I was healthy. Then I had him and he had several medical problems. So do you see why it's hard for me to not let go of my little tiny baby. Not wanting to let go is my fear right now, I will , It's just going to be very hard for me. Because I really don't know if there will be anymore children in our life, I just don't know what God has in store for my life. I just want to hang on to what we got right now. It just hurts!!!

Getting Older...

I know, I am behind in blogging. I just can't keep up with my blog. There just seems to be no end of my life slowing down. I just got back from another trip to Branson, I should prob. move up there. This makes my forth trip. And each time, I have seen something different. This time was the Christmas trip. It's only Nov. 5 and I'm ready to put my Christmas out. We got to see all kinds of lighting displays. So we can now count down day's till Christmas I think it's now 50 day's till Christmas. I'm sooooo not ready. The problem is Carson's birthday is the 23 of this month, then we turn around and Christmas is the 25. Not much of a brake. I was more into looking at how people decorated this year at branson. I have got so many ideas, I just wish it didn't go so fast, so we could enjoy Christmas like we used to. Getting older is sure though. We are so wrapped up in all that we do, we can't ever enjoy it. As soon as Christmas gets here, it will be all over. I just wish life would slow down, just a little.